Speechless

Rare is the occasion when I cannot find the right words to express what moves inside me.  I’ve spent 40 years of my life – as a way of life! – on this journey of personal discovery and evolution.  I’m not quite sure when the turn in the road took me beyond seeking with my head to allowing myself to be found through the body; from seeking to solve a problem to simply enjoying… no, exhilarating in… the experience for its own sake.  Now, my journey is my life and my life is my journey.  Does it get any less complicated than that? 

I’ve just moved through the most compelling 6 days of my life!  With great courage, trust and an immense sense of play, Manifesting a Meaningful Life launched like the space shuttle, on Day 1, and then moved forward from there!  This was far more than a shift in the existing conversation – it was a much larger, more powerful conversation that although sourced from the last ones was fueled by something very different. 

As I moved through this one, I was mindful that I was not merely a tour guide but part of the tour… part of the process of exploring, awakening to and engaging what moved inside me as the women around me rose to the occasion of redesigning the meaning of ‘life’, each for herself.  I was in the best of company as we all let go and allowed ourselves to be found, through the mechanism of the body; being guided to discoveries that were greater than any words we could find for it.  Every day, several times a day, ‘more’ would surface and things would fall into place.  In those waves of massive insight, the world changed and so did we. 

As each day passed, I experienced the interesting phenomenon of time slowing and speeding up at the same time.  There were moments when it felt like I had been there for eons and yet, by the end of the day, felt it had flown by!  Things stopped and we stood motionless while the world moved around us; and in the next breath, having travelled at the speed of sound… or light… it had all become a blur of the past.  

The entire process could easily have slipped into a never-ending series of philosophical moments rich with gratification for the intellect  and yet, that never happened.  Every day began with surrender… to the moment, to the body and to the waves moving through it… and ended with more and different waves of expansion and discovery.  From time to time we would wonder:  does it ever stop???  We concluded that it would no more stop than breathing.  It is the very process that keeps us vital, vibrant, awake and alive! 

Today, I stand in a different place.  After two days of rest and letting go, I am ready to once again engage from one breath to the next, trusting that there is nothing for me to figure out; and knowing that my greatest potential lies in allowing myself to be found.  in that, there is nothing to fear.  I AM, after all, the One in my own life – and this is about my life.  

In 6 short days, lives changed, worlds expanded, potential awakened and meaning came to life in the simple act of living authentically, in that which presented in one breath to the next.  No master plan.  No sense of ‘knowing’ and a great sense of ‘being’ the discovery.  I know there is so much more that continues to unfold and in this moment, words escape me.  Perhaps there will be more in a day or two…

Whose fault is it, anyway?

Sometimes, I miss having someone else to blame for the state of my body… of my life.

I lament the ‘good ole days’ of believing – heart and soul – that the world ‘out there’ was doing things to me… that other people were doing things to me… and that I was a righteous and legitimate victim of my circumstances.

There are moments when I long for it to be up to someone else to stop doing something so that I can start to do something; or for someone else to start doing something so that I can stop! There was great satisfaction in knowing that if my life wasn’t working it was because someone else hadn’t gotten it ‘right’, yet!

Today, when I am lucid and present and awake and connected, I know better. I know I create my world and everything in it. I know that I call up into expression all that I require to discover and connect to more of the godforce that I am in a physical world. I know that every single person, event or experience presents as some aspect of my own consciousness as an invitation for me to notice something about myself… and let go.

Let go of my story. Let go of what I hold to be fair/unfair, just/unjust, right/wrong. Let go of being at the mercy of, a victim to and being helpless to change it myself. Let go of my righteous rage; my justifiable absence from the design of my own life; and from my unwillingness to act/live/be without permission and without invitation from someone/something outside myself.

My life is mine to live… to create.. and to innovate. It is mine to design, rife with twists and turns, soft curves and sharp corners, with spaces small enough to suffocate me and vast enough for me to lose myself in! And through it all, nonetheless, mine.

Today has been an extremely busy, busy day. From the time I got up until this moment, my day has been filled with a wide variety of conversations and connections. If I were still who I once was, I would be wondering: what’s good/bad, right/wrong about or with all those people??? But I am not who I once was – I AM the One … the only one… who can make a difference in my life. In that, I take a breath.. and I pause.. and I wonder: what aspect of my own consciousness is each of these people? I stand in a deep and unshakeable awareness of the godforce that I am and I ask: how does the godforce that I AM choose to live today?

In that, I take my next breath… I invite and allow… and I move forward into what is indeed, a life of my own design.  Life is good!

If WEL-Systems® is a gateway to a new paradigm, what’s the old one?

In all my years of working with others to help them understand and access the paradigm that a WEL-Systems journey makes possible, it has never occurred to me to first speak to and identify the existing paradigm in which we live.  I have always assumed that it was obvious.  These days, I’m thinking, not so much….  

Trying to answer that question is like asking the fish: “How’s the water?” The likely answer from the fish will be : ‘What water?” How could it be otherwise when all it knows is what it knows.

The fish only knows ‘what is’ (what we call ‘water’ but what the fish would know as ‘reality’) as its absolute truth or ‘reality’; and has no concept of ‘not water’.

Whether we notice it or not, our world… the world of our parents, our having been parented; the world of family, school, church, work and community sits in a ‘reality’ that is never questioned. We just live it, never thinking to ask ourselves: What is this ‘reality’ and is it anything I want to be a part of? Who designed this reality? How did I come to be so unhesitatingly bound to and by it?

Our existing reality can be called many other things. It can be called ‘cultural conditioning’ – a way of passing that reality from one generation to the next – through the most powerful forces that shape culture : family systems. It can be called ‘mind control’ or  ‘mind share’, recognizing that what I am taught to believe as real and true is not presented to me as a suggestion or an invitation – it is presented to me as an absolute truth and reality. In that world, what is there to question? All the fish know better than to try to live in ‘not water’!

And yet, in the last 50 years, our reality has been profoundly challenged by the ever-unfolding discoveries of our science. With technology that allows us to see much deeper within ( a metaphor, perhaps, for where we’re choosing to look?); and with ways to seeing linkages and connections that for generations we had no idea even existed, we are coming to discover that there are many ways not only to see more of our world but to completely reconsider and redefine that world, itself.  In that, we must stop and ask:  what meaning does this hold for who and what we are as human beings?  What potential does it make available that we were never before able to even consider let alone access and engage? 

In light of what we’ve discovered, our current ‘reality’ is nothing more than an opinion, compiled from incomplete and often outdated science and passed down from one generation to the next, without question or invitation to challenge and explore. Our existing world… our existing paradigm… is one that is grounded in and molded and shaped by a presumption of accuracy and truth when in fact, it represents no such thing. Our existing world/reality/paradigm, like any other, is held together by our commitment to hold as ‘true’ what we have been told to hold in our awareness. Our reality, as evidenced by current global events, is a by-product of what we choose to call ‘real’ and the subsequent choices that ‘reality’ demands in order to hold it in place. We are rapidly discovering that indeed, the Emperor has no clothes.

A WEL-Systems journey is a gateway to a new paradigm; one that is no more or less a ‘reality’ or ‘truth’. What it represents is an invitation to consider new things; and to consider differently, those things we have already considered. It is an expression of a willingness and an ability to take what we already know as real and true – like the notion of ‘family’, for example – and allow ourselves to consider our experience of ‘family’ through a very different lens. Our resulting outcome is not good/bad, right or wrong.. it simply ‘is’ an invitation to open ourselves to a new intelligence… to the truth of our own experience rather than the imposed ‘truth’ of a powerful collective committed to its own sustainability.

Any existing truth or reality – that of church, school, parenting, money, growth, relationship, disease, addiction, etc – can be taken from the existing paradigm in which we live (which I have chosen to call the Newtonian model of the world) and can be re-examined and re-experienced in a WEL-Systems journey (which is a journey through both the old paradigm and a gateway to a new paradigm) with startling results.

What we soon discover is that the glue that binds in the current paradigm… the ‘existing reality’ that is shared without question by fish the world over… is external referencing. We look outside ourselves, to someone/something else that is more powerful, more ‘right’ and more intelligent than ourselves, in exchange for being given what we want and kept safe. It begins with parents then moves seamlessly to teachers, religious guides, coaches, bosses, etc… all the way allowing our personal truth to be subjugated to the mandatory truth of someone outside ourselves. Unquestionable truth is always the pathway to slavery of the mind.

This new (and in my opinion much more powerful) paradigm – with a WEL-Systems journey as the stepping stones to its gateway – demands that we be internally referenced, trusting the truth of our own experience and allowing our internal cues to guide us. This approach, in our existing reality, is a dangerous and profound threat to its very existence.

Like you can never know the truth of the experience of swimming if you are unwilling to enter the water, so can you never know the truth of a different paradigm if you are unwilling to dive into an exploration of the one you’re in ! You cannot find and experience a new paradigm by staying in the one you’re in; and you cannot choose to move away from it until you know you’re in it! Like the fish, we must come to know water that we might also discover ‘not water’. A WEL-Systems journey offers a tried, tested and profoundly effective pathway to discovering both ‘water’ and ‘not water’; and to allowing you to choose where you live.

When I wrote Fully Alive , it reflected the simple yet powerful journey that I had taken to be able to see that the Emperor had no clothes.  With that discovery, I became willing to discover more!  When I wrote Phoenix Rising , I had discovered much more than new things to see – I had discovered new eyes through which to see.  Today, standing as the Quantum Biological Human™ that I know myself to be, I design my life and live by an inner truth that guides me forward, without hesitation.  

Read!  Take the big risk and allow yourself to discover what you already suspect! Acquire new information and new ways of being.  Without these discoveries, you are destined to ‘try’ to create your new life inside the box of the old one… and will never even notice you’re still in the box.  

Your life is indeed, up to you to design.