Alive and well and trundling along…

Wow!  Time sure flies when you’re having fun!  When I checked the date of my last post to this blog, I was struck by how quickly I’ve gone from July 7th to August 21st.  Lots has happened and I know there is lots more to come. 

Since July, I’ve seen my life take some dramatic turns.  Perhaps the most stunning (for me) was that the July offering of ‘Decloaking…and living authentically‘ was my last in the program room.  As I moved through those five days with a small group of women, gathering to explore and reclaim their lives, I was very aware that this was my ‘last pass’ in this conversation.  The results were dramatic and outstanding – and that’s what I think we all deserve.  

From there, I took a deep breath, wandered through a couple of days of not doing much at all, then boarded a cruise ship in Vancouver for Alaska, with my mother, my adult sons and two wonderful friends.  What a great time that was!  This was my 5th cruise to Alaska and for me, it’s one place I never tire of.  The word ‘majestic’ is truly legitimate when speaking of this magical place.  Massive… expansive… empty of all that ‘civilization’ offers and yet filled with its own glory.  Watching it all go by from the verandah of our suite was peaceful and invigorating, at the same time.  

The six of us shared meals every day.  We laughed a lot!  We poked each other and pointed to make sure that no magical moment was missed.  We took pictures…. lots and lots of pictures!… likely close to a 1000 between two of us.  It was a wonderful experience for me and one that I will long remember.  

Long ago, my mother and I would take road trips with my sons.  I remember those like they were yesterday.  I wasn’t much on picture taking then so the images I carry from those escapades are stored in the cells of my being… as vibrant and clear and bright as the day they happened.  Inside, I knew this would be the last great ‘road trip’ that my mother and I would share with these now-grown, adult men.  Perhaps the next one will include their mates – and who knows?  One of these days, maybe I”ll get to be the grandmother.  :) 

And now, my head is down and my attention is completely focused on editing the 30+ hours of raw recorded material that came from that last ‘Decloaking’ experience.  So far, I’m through the first two days and it’s compelling stuff!  Funny… much of it I have no memory of having ever come out of my mouth…

And so, the Flame of ‘Decloaking’ will continue to burn through the expressions of others.  Sheila and Amy will be offering this five-day journey in Ottawa and the US; and in Halifax.  The soon-to-be-completed multi-disc CD set that carries my last July experience will form part of these journeys.  So, although I’m not there ‘in the flesh’, energetically I will continue to be in the flow of these journeys.  This too, will be magical. 

My future is emerging, from one day to the next.  I have no idea what tomorrow brings AND I know that the sense of excitement and eagerness to engage that my body carries tells me that the ‘more’ of who I can become is in the process of moving, taking shape for its expression when its time has come.  In some ways, I feel like a horse heading for the barn; and in other ways, I feel like the small vibration that knows its destiny is to become the 8.9 earthquake that will reshape the land.  

In this moment, details elude me – and are unnecessary.  I continue to invite and allow; I breathe and follow the impulse; I claim the truth of my own experience; I stay in the tough conversations with myself and others; I am wiling to stand alone and know myself to do so; and I know that in doing all of this, I shape my world.

In all this, I know I am already manifesting what, in this moment, seems only to be coming.  And yet, truth be told, it is already here. 

Breathing is good…

Activist for Acceleration of Human Evolution

It seems like I blinked and a couple of weeks went by.  

I’ve been listening to and editing for production the raw recorded material from the October 2007 offering of Emerging Futures: Leadership Redefined – Reclaimed.  What an amazing experience!  What felt so strange about it is that as I listened to my own voice (there was more than 24 hours of recorded material to work with), I had no sense of it being me.  It wasn’t the sound quality, or the voice itself – it was that it felt like I was hearing it all for the first time!  That’s a bit tricky when I’m supposed to be editing.  

I kept getting lost in the material, itself. For 10 days, I listened and re-listened and re-re-listened to capture almost 10 hours of the most compelling material.  As I engaged in those multiple passes, I was stunned by the power of the material.  How could that be???? I was one of the women there!!  And yet, there you have it: it was all a big surprise for me, too.  

We (Paul with WEL-Systems Productions and myself) took great care to ensure that the design of the product (labeling, tracking, chunking, etc) was a match for the power of the content.  Man!  I had no idea that it was going to take each of us in excess of 50 hours to get this done.  But we did it – and it’s magnificent!  We now have a 10-disc CD series that will launch a wave of insight and discovery from which there will be no going back.  (It will be available in a week or so, in the online Store.)

Not only am I proud of what we’ve created as a product, I’m deeply honored to be with these courageous women in this raw, edgy and powerful exploration of leadership.  As one woman has already said:  this conversation will redefine how we think of, talk about and live ‘leadership’.   I don’t doubt that for a moment. But all that’s about the CD series.  What about me?

 I’m exhausted and elated at the same time!  I’m filled with anticipation for the future and what is to come!  I’m very, very clear – not just from the force of my own intention/manifestation but also from the life force that pours through my body as I engage this way – that I am indeed, an activist for the acceleration of human evolution! And I am discovering that I am not alone in this pressing force in the body.  

I am finding/meeting/creating many, many other women for whom this call in their own body is intense and will not be ignored.  There is much going on today that is inviting and awakening many to their own evolution.  And yet perhaps what I am most mindful of is :  why walk when we can fly?  Why struggle when we can glide effortlessly into our own magnificence?  Why seek answers when we can learn to delight, relax into and surrender to the joy of the much larger question?  Why have this awakening be the domain of the few when it can be the breath for us all?

I have become very aware of what sets me apart from many.  I do not seek to rid myself or anyone else of their ‘dark’ side.  By having discovered how to acknowledge, claim and honor my own ‘dark side’, I have come to know the genius that it carries and the power of its capacity for allowing the light in.  There are many gateways and discovering a new context for what I once was taught to press aside, has made it possible for me to claim the full measure of who I am in the world.  And life is good!

 Yesterday, I had the great joy of spending my morning with a small group of women, gathering… to explore what it is that ‘lights’ them up.  In three short hours, it was clear that as much as the whole had become greater than the sum of its parts, it could never have gotten that way without each part. In our willingness, each to stand alone, we found great strength in a new collective.  In truth, when we stand alone and take the time to look around, we can see others standing strong in their individuality.  Strength does not lie in blending ourselves into an existing collective – it lies in being the seedpod and attractor for the creation of a new one.

Breathing is good…..