In a recent letter, he shared with me some of the things that were going on in his life.  His authentic and open expression caused me to rethink my personal choice to work with women; and trust that there are other women who will make the personal choice to work directly with men.

I share my response (below) that you might ponder for yourself, what is possible for yourself and for the men in your lives, however that connection may exist.

Thanks for sharing that story with me.  Somehow, as I read, it all sounds/feels like the archetypical story of the never-ending search for the ‘nirvana’ of connection.  I don’t suggest that’s a good thing or a bad thing – just a very familiar thing.  Personally?  I think the great hunger that we carry is to better know our Selves… better know the truth of who we are, why we’re here, what we stand for; and does it matter if we get out of bed in the morning.

It is both strange and interesting to me that you and I have been in this across-the-pond connection, through email.  I have thoroughly welcomed and enjoyed every moment over the (how many?) years.  To me, you are not a ‘person’ in the mundane, every-day sort of way, but a ‘presence’.  An expression of your sense of adventure; of your discoveries and insights; and of your moments of turmoil and vulnerability.  In all of those fractures, there is an underlying wholeness.  For whatever reason, it brings me hope.  You are evidence to me, that the greater enquiry is alive and well!

I believe that one of the great benefits and advantages that women have is their ease with and enjoyment of each other’s good company.  Women may desire men – and they don’t need them when they have each other.  As a result, having a man/men in their lives becomes a mindful choice and not a drive to stave off the night.  Know what I mean?

In these, my later years (I am, after all, now closer to 90 than I am to 30!), I am profoundly relaxing into engaging, seeking out, recognizing, appreciating and welcoming life as a unique creation, rather than a repetition of old habits.  In much of what you share, I witness both.  What strikes me as so vital and enlivening is your unstoppable search!  No doubt, as you stay in that, you’ll find what you seek.

You know that I stopped working with men in 2006.  Not because of anything that I don’t want – but because what I do want was not (seemingly) attainable with them.  I have maintained for many years that the evolution that men seek will not be found in a program room, through courses or trainings or certifications… but in the presence of the women who love them and that they love.  A few days ago, I got an email from the spouse of one of our clients that gave me hope.  He is a changed man – and I’ve done nothing.  Susan (his spouse) shared her set of the ‘Sexual, Sensual and Spiritual Beings‘ cd’s with him – and he woke up.  Did he wake up because of the CD’s?  I don’t know – likely there were things said that profoundly shook him to the core.  And in my truth of it, he woke up because in passing the CD’s to him, Susan was saying:  ”Wake up! ”  In that moment, he could hear.

Not quite sure why I am feeling compelled to share all of this with you.  And nonetheless, here it is.  Personally?  I believe that in my life, I have to choose between being the manager of the life I have or the creator of the one I desire.  And with that, the world expands.

This exploration was seeded more than three years ago.  I would reach out into the collective of women with whom I engage, picking dates and locations to make this exploration possible in the good company of each other.  The enthusiasm for this conversation and the excitement that it was going to take place, was palpable!  For me, this was a clear indication that the time for this exploration had come; and that we were ready to embrace it – and ourselves – differently!

Yet, time after time, no one would come.

I found this rather odd since I could feel the intensity around the topic.  Perhaps, in my own enthusiasm, I mistook fear for excitement; and the agitation, as evidence of the recognition of the importance to proceed. Nonetheless, continuing to move forward in my unshakeable personal belief that this conversation must take place and that it’s time had come, I was spurred on by the frequent and persistent inquiry about :  “When would the CD’s for this conversation be available?”  In that simple query, I knew the desire for the discovery was there – and what was still missing was the willingness and the ability to engage and explore. The hesitation to ‘go first’ was unmistakeable.

Fast forward… and here we now stand:  three years later, having experienced one of the most intense, compelling and provocative explorations that I’ve ever been a part of!   For four days, a small group of 10 courageous, curious and both ‘willing and able’ women came together to face into what they knew instinctively about themselves, standing at the jagged edge of its imminent revelation.

This may be the first time in my life that my sense of my Self has fully awakened to grace and has transcended the once mindless and culturally fueled default to my body’s gender..  (Sheila Winter Wallace – Chelsea, Quebec)

For four days, we laughed and we cried.  We found within ourselves the irreverent, the inappropriate and the politically incorrect.  We waded through and raged against the deep, dark secrets that have kept us in bondage in our day-to-day lives.

We explored and we discovered that we are indeed, each whole, unique and essential  to our respective worlds.

It has been a very intense journey for me and SSS was the rupture of the veil that I saw through, and a reclamation of me as I stand in my Innocence and own it.  (Betty Carr-Braint, Tyindenaga Mohawk Territory, Ontario)

We reclaimed courage and fear; strength and vulnerability… discovering that the great and wiling compassion we so often easily and unwaveringly offer to others is best, first offered to and accepted by, ourselves.

We are changed; and in that change, are more authentically ourselves than we have ever been.  We stand more assuredly, at the boundary of our own line in the sand.  We own more and perhaps, need to understand less than we have ever considered possible.  And in the end, we have concluded that this journey is our own – to be shaped, defined and reclaimed as we see fit.

 In the MASSIVE space I was able to reclaim my body and take back the access to my own CHOICE- that it is indeed my body to experience the sensual experience of the godforce that I AM in tissue and from here express my own sexuality through the creations of my life…and to know it really has NOTHING to do with sex! (Naomi Irons-Hill, New Glasgow, NS) 

Was this the end?  Had we come to a conclusion about the outcome that would be our destination?  Absolutely not!  This is but a beginning, of a very different kind, that will take us much more quickly/much more directly, into carving out a meaningful life for ourselves.  This powerful four-day conversation was a first step – yet it was a first step like no other!   Should you choose to engage this conversation for yourself, know that you are in the good company of so many others who are daring to do the same, for themselves.

The SSS experience was for me one of reclaiming – reclaiming self – reclaiming and allowing to grow parts of me that indeed I didn’t fully realize were not the way I desired them to be. The presentation and discussion of sensual-sexual-spiritual as a continuum was powerful! (Leona McIsaac-Moran, Charlottetown, PEI)

In my 20 plus years of working with women, I have had the opportunity to bear witness to deep and meaningful change, in the lives of many.  Having said that, I am coming to  conclude that in the face of all that I have developed, created and engaged, this conversation is the singularly most meaningful, relevant and significant conversation…. a turning point… that holds the greatest  potential to transform how we see ourselves and each other; and how we choose to redesign how we live!

I knew the Sensual, Sexual and Spiritual Beings conversation was going to be important for me, I just didn’t know how much. For me, it was the beginning of discovering another layer of intimacy with mySelf. I experienced the continuum of Sensual, Sexual and Spiritual inside mySelf as I integrated information that was still lingering from my past which allowed me to employ the strategies of holding back, of being afraid of my own sensuality and sexuality as a woman, defined by what our culture deems appropriate. (Lisa Weiss, Carp, Ontario)

This conversation is, in my opinion, long overdue, having been sidelined for generations by the profound distraction of a single part of the experience (sexuality) when what we have been so desperately seeking is a sense of the whole.   We will never know wholeness when we are determined to focus on but one part of who we are!

The highlights of this compelling exploration have been captured and are now available to be shared with you, in a 10-CD audio format. Finally, after several years of anticipation; and several days of exploration that surpassed my highest expectations, you’re invited into this discovery process in the privacy of your own mind.  As you listen, ask yourself:  “Who else in my life may be ready for this exploration?”  Let them know about this audio series… and dare to be The One to open up a new line of enquiry!  Leadership begins with being leaders, in our own lives.  Take comfort in knowing that your willingness to be uncertain and engage nonetheless, may well be your greatest resource!

At a deeply grounded place inside, I knew that I did not feel that my womanhood was compartmentalized.  I knew that I was more than only MAIDEN or GODDESS or CRONE.   I was angry at the limitations which were placed on me by virtue of my gender and my age.  I was out of tune with mySelf – disconnected from the WHOLENESS of  mySelf. 

  In letting go of old ways of being and thinking, I can live all aspects of my Sensual-Sexual-Spiritual self.  They are all parts of the whole which is ME.  I AM MAIDEN and GODDESS and CRONE fully integrated at the same time.  They are ALL of ME.  And in knowing this, I feel full and complete in tissue – fully integrated and no longer disjointed.  (Jean Winter, Peterborough, Ontario)

Should you choose to dive into the deep end of your own potential, know that as you do – that as you have those moments of believing yourself to be standing alone – you are in the good company of many others who are taking a stand for themselves.  In that, this growing and evolving community of women – awake, enlivened and willing to be authentically themselves  – is already carving out a new world!

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To read feedback from participants in the recent four-day Sexual, Sensual and Spiritual Beings retreat, visit the Engage WEL-Systems area.  Be sure to add your comments should you choose to experience the retreat CD’s.

Random thoughts coming and going, some taking root and some simply nodding in my direction as they fly through the seeming chaos of my own world.

No answers – just a different way to see.  No right/wrong, good/bad – just a moment of choice, before the next moment presents… and then the next presents, again and again.

I share with you what has flashed in and through my own awareness.  Who knows?  Maybe it will matter for you, too.

When it comes to manifesting a meaningful life, here’s what I know I must always ask, within myself:

• Do I want my life to be different?  This demands that I get honest with myself and determine:  what do I really want?  And what am I seeming to want in order to be acceptable/approved of/validated by others?  Without honesty here, the rest is  a waste of time.  And if I really do want my life to be different, my next question is:
• Am I willing to live differently to make that happen?  If so, that requires that I think differently; so that I might choose differently; so that I might behave differently… and from there, that I might live differently.   I can’t get to the last one without moving through the first three.

As the world accelerates… everything picking up speed, regardless of the state of the journey or the destination… I know now, more than ever, that the exploration of evolution of consciousness (including, what is that????), for its own sake, will be what sets me free!

Breathing is good….

Over those many years, I’ve also had the opportunity to speak to many groups of women (professional groups, corporate groups, personal growth conferences, wellness conferences, etc.) and engage with them, post presentation.

I’ve belonged to a wide range of women’s groups, originally local in nature and then eventually, with the advent of technology, ‘virtual’ in  their reach.

I’m not who I used to be and, truth is, I’m grateful for that.  Along the way, I’ve discovered, evolved and become much more an expression of what is meaningful to me rather than seek to be what is  familiar to or comfortable for another.

I’ve changed my mind about what I hold as meaningful about this notion of ‘networking’.  Call it experience, wisdom or the simple passage of time, I know that my world is mine to create as I see fit.  The outcome of this shift in my own perspective now translates to a different set of perceptual filters in place when I consider what calls to me to engage.  I share these with you that you might reconsider the possibilities for yourself.  Here are five simple thoughts I keep in mind when making the meaningful choices for myself, around networking.

* Go to give –  not to get.  The ‘getting’ will happen all by itself.

Rather than playing the ‘business card shuffle’ or looking outside myself for the next client or the next sale, I focus on looking inside myself and ask:  what can I bring to the party?  When I look back at the end of the evening, how will my having been there make a difference in the world that I care about?

* Go to listen – not to talk.

In hearing others, I come to discover more of myself.   What better way to discover my personal biases, limitations, judgements or filters, than to expose myself to all that moves inside ME, in the presence of others.  As I listen and engage, I stay mindful of what’s happening inside of ME rather than detach from myself and seek to consider how I am being perceived/evaluated/judged by others:  ”Do I look good?  Am I doing it right?  Are they impressed with me?  Do I stand out as a cut-above my competition? “

* It’s not a numbers game.

How many groups I sign up for is not a measure of my ability to be successful at my job/business/life.  I am selective about where I want to spend my precious time.  I talk to people who already attend; look back over their events list and then, I look around and ask:  Is this who I want to become?  Does this collective represent that which I aspire to express in my world?  Not good/bad, right/wrong… just a deeply personal and relevant enquiry.  Then, I choose and engage.

* Listen for those who are searching.

I don’t need to have the answers – I just need to be willing to stay in the discomfort of the questions, as those around me slowly (and often, cautiously) reveal the places where their challenges lie.  For most of us, we know we’re capable – we just don’t always want to have to go it alone.

*  If I’m not eager to be there, don’t go!

I don’t sign up until I’ve been on the floor a couple of times for the dance.  There’s nothing worse than being part of a group because I think it’s the ‘right’ thing to do; or because I’ve already paid and ‘want my money’s worth’.  If I’m not looking forward to each opportunity to engage, I’m in the wrong place.   I walk away when it does not call to me , no matter how many others are going there.  I seek to be myself, and choose accordingly.

I no longer go to ‘network’ – I go to enrich my life; to be in the good company of other women who share a passion for the underlying values of ‘being’, recognizing  work/business as a natural conduit for its expression.  I seek to engage with others in discovering just how good our lives can be.  In that shared exploration, I get to meet and spend time with so many different women, each of whom contributes greatly to my own evolution – as a person, as an entrepreneur and as a woman.  From that natural order of connection and rapport, all else falls into place.

For myself, I discovered the Company of Women (Ottawa Chapter) three years ago and have slowly inched my way into engaging regularly and meaningfully with this growing collective.  I know the power of women in collective – I’ve been working with women for more than 20 years.  And beyond that, I am coming to know – personally, viscerally and unapologetically – the power of women in a non-competitive business collective; creating a low-to-the-ground web of interconnecting points of light, recognizing that when the web vibrates, we all awaken to the ‘more’ of us that awaits!

I eagerly anticipate the next opportunity to connect!  And when I get into my car and head out to a dinner or a breakfast meeting, I look forward to being there… and when I arrive, I quickly recognize in the faces of others,  so are they.  In that moment, I know I’ve chosen well.

I noticed long ago that moments of passage – like birthdays, anniversaries, etc. – held no meaning for me, despite the value placed on them by the culture in which I live.  Hallmark Moments, all, left me devoid of any need to engage.  What I was mindful of was fully engaging every moment, as it flowed through my being.

These last few months have been very busy, indeed!  Through the passage of this time, moments of great change have directed and redirected the currents of my life in meaningful and profoundly-altering ways.  I breathe… I engage… and I find myself standing in a new place, in a new way.  As I look around, I am aware that I am completely without any sense of destination or path; and that I know only trajectory.  What will be there, in the flow of it presenting, and what I will find at the so-called ‘end’ will all be part of this Great Adventure that is MY life!  I’ll keep you posted…

These last few weeks have been filled with the preparation of a new audio series for ACES – and I’m lovin’ every minute of it!  I get to recapture such amazing and inspirational moments as I listen to these courageous women reclaim their lives – adamant in their commitment to their evolution of Self, no matter what! As I listened, I became aware of an intertwining that was occurring.. a dance between speaker and listener… recognizing that the power of this intimate flow was not in its content but in the design of that Flow, itself.  What follows seeks to capture that moment, within myself, shared with others.  I offer it to you, that you may find something new for yourSelf.

What you are about to listen to is one woman’s journey through her own accelerated evolution.   As you listen, allow yourself to go beyond the content of the words that she’s saying, and listen for the vibration of who she is and, perhaps, has not yet come to know herself to be.

Listen for the sound of her commitment to her own evolution; to her willingness to stay in that tough, tough conversation with herself; and to her unfaltering determination to find that which she seeks.

Listen for the chaos and confusion; for the underlying current of caution and self-preservation; and for the great desire to find a new place to stand!

And perhaps more than all of these, listen for your own evolution in the generosity of her gift to all of us, in her willingness to go first.

Recognizing that if it resonates within you, it lives in you,  listen for the potential in your own evolution if you allow that wave to move, in you.

Recognizing that we are each an expression of the consciousness of another, in living tissue in a material world, allow yourself to be awakened to that which may lie buried… waiting for the voice of another to awaken you to its presence.

And recognizing that we are Beings of Light, designed for transformation in the nano-second of a single breath,  invite what calls to you, inside of you, to be revealed.

It takes courage to be willing to reveal; to move beyond that often dark and lonely inner rumination that goes on and on – sometimes for an entire lifetime! – to become the emanation of a life lived OUT LOUD and in full view!

But it also takes courage to be willing to hear; to stay present – inside yourself, where you live – when another speaks with such raw and visceral longing for herSelf.

It takes courage to relax into yourSelf in the face of another’s reflection of your own vulnerability; in those moments when all that you fear is served up to you, through the vibration of another; and rather than escape – rather than change the subject, move away, become distracted –  you stay present to yourSelf and, through that, with another in that shared exploration of what can feel like a dangerous place.

And when we do; when we find that courage inside ourselves, we move closer to that which we are intended to be.  Something within softens and loosens; and once again, we come to know a greater truth about WHAT we are and why we chose to be here.

It’s not always easy  and it’s not always fun;  and it is, without doubt and hesitation, the most meaningful, sustainable – and effective! – way for us to find our way Home.

Let this one woman’s journey become the invitation to invite and allow your own courage to become the song that sings your Authentic Self into being!

These last three days have found me in the intensive conversations that are the platform for certification as a CODE Model Coach™.  Because CODE Model Coaching™ is not about solving a problem; because it is about using a presenting problem as the start-point to a journey back to reclamation of Self; because it is about ‘being’ and not about ‘doing’, there are no strategies, techniques or practices on which to rely when engaging with self and other/s – there is only the breath in that moment.  How many times have I been here, before?  How many hours have I already spent in these conversations, as the culmination of the hundreds of hours that preceded it?  I’ve lost count – and what I know is, it doesn’t matter.

There is no ‘before’.  There is no vast accumulation of knowledge; or the wisdom that comes of experience.

There is no repertoire of problems solved, challenges met and lives changed.

There is only this moment.  And in this moment, there is everything else.

Strange…. to know that all that has come before is of no relevance.  There is no accumulation of ‘being right’ that I can point to by way of rationalizing the legitimacy of this insight, discovery or outcome, in this moment.  To be sure, that is not what I was told when I was moving toward ‘achieving’ adulthood!  In this thought, I could bore you with a litany of discoveries and accomplishments, none of which would have any value other than to demonstrate how I’ve occupied my time.  What does have value is that I am here… I am connected to something inside me that defies categorization… and I am both willing and able to engage as the creator of my own world.

The question then becomes:  at what level of expression does ‘world’ hold my interest?  Provoke my potential?  Awaken me to the vast and boundless creations of which the I AM that I am, is not only capable but designed and intended?

Perhaps my past has been that I create within existing worlds.  Perhaps my future lies in creating worlds that do not yet exist.  We already know that what is seen is but small measure of the vast field of the Unseen, from which it is sourced.  What if I were to see through new eyes?  What if that vast Unseen were to become my new playground?

What brings my life meaning may not bring meaning to yours.  What causes my life to be sustainable may not be so, for you.  What gets you out of bed in the morning may not even appear on the radar of my life!  And what I know (without a doubt!) really matters, is that it must matter to you.

Whether these make sense or not, they make sense to me and I share them with you:

* My life is a living expression of the Hawaiian alphabet.  With vowels and only 7 consonants, there can be challenges when the same word is used to express many different things!  It is not the word that changes – it is the context that lives inside the person who is doing the listening/expressing.  Internal referencing drives understanding, unique and shared.   What this says to me is that it is the creator within that changes, not the creations themselves.

* What once were the measures of my ‘successful’ life are now subject to this phenomenon of the Hawaiian language.  What once molded and shaped my choices no longer even shape a moment, let alone my life.  I am no longer able to ignore the degree to which the coma of cultural conditioning allows the droning to sustain itself.  What we call ‘culture’ is its own hum… IS the vibrational cue that sustains itself, without challenge.  Culture does not need effort to be  maintained – that is done through history and habit.  What does need effort is the shift in reality that makes it possible for each to awaken to him/herSelf.  THAT will not come from the outside (from the template), in.  It can only be manifested from the inside, out.  How do I awaken to, connect with and engage that which lives, within?

During the last three days, one on this journey with us shared:  “I can see!”  And inside myself, I thought:  I can only see through the eyes of the Seer that I am.  Change the seer, and I see different things.  Perhaps in those much earlier times, it was never that I could not see – it was that I could not allow myself to see what I saw.

Not so long ago, I was mindful that I was getting more and more ‘weird’, by the day!  Today, I know differently.

I know the I AM that I am is here to create my reality; to own the creator that I know mySelf to be; to discover that I am already both willing and able to separate mySelf from my creations and own ‘creator’ as the force… as the presence… that I know mySelf to be.  I knew that as a child – and so did you.  Now, I remember.

And so, my journey continues.  Now that I remember, now what?  As I slide more willingly and naturally and comfortably into that world, I also know myself slipping from the one that is validated as ‘real’.  I sometimes wonder:  if the hum were to cease and we were to awaken from the coma of culture, what then would we do with ourselves?  When the money stops; when the external drivers for ‘success’ stop; when there are no more standards to meet, challenges to overcome, problems to solve and world-views to resist, how will we know we’re alive?  What will we do with ourselves when the measure of our being is no longer set outside of us?

I believe I speak for those present when I say that this last CMC Certification Intensive has awakened ‘creator’ in each of us.  And now, we live.

What an interesting notion:  awakening.  Such is the philosophy and language that permeates so much of what now fills the sounds and sights of information shared, with one’s Self or others.  And I find myself asking:  “Awakening…. to what? And for what purpose?”

Much of what I see linked to on Facebook (and in other  places) holds little to no interest for me.  Perhaps it is that I began this journey when I was 18 and  am now 61; or perhaps it is that I am noticing – far too often – that, like bell bottom pants and sideburns, everything old is new again!  My memory still serves me well; and I recognize old news when I see it.

That I continue to see what was (now long repeated) continue to be without results, leaves me discouraged.  And perhaps that is the underpinning of my discouragement.  I began my journey at 18, seeking my own personal evolution; and for the last 20 years, have done nothing but!  I can honestly say that this journey of personal evolution – the journey of evolution of human consciousness – has filled my every waking moment for more than 40 years.  Because of this, there have been few ‘gaps’ in my journey; few breaks along the way with the usual distractions of daily living.

So, in this moment, I pause and reconsider:  Awakening… to what?

Many have awakened to the need to be more attentive to the physical body; to be more discerning (and mindful) of what foods we eat; of how much sleep we get; of the need to move our body if we are to remain energetic and enlivened.  Diets of one kind or another abound… and yet, I notice even there, what was ‘the thing’ to do five years ago is now questionable (if not lethal) from today’s point of view.

Many have awakened to the need to wake up to what we’re doing with our days!   The idea of ‘balance’ in personal and professional life; the notion of being reasonable in what we give and take in our interactions with others.  Greater consideration of our ‘relationships’ and what those are; what they mean to us; and the parameters we establish for determining what we keep and what we let go of.  Again, pivotal to this level of discovery is the recognition that over time, many of our determinations roll off to the side to be replaced by a newer one.  At least, for a while…

Many have awakened to the recognition that our strategies for living – as individuals, as a local community and as a global community – are no longer working!  We’re depleting the planet of its natural resources, which is bad enough – and we’re doing it in a way that is destroying the very eco-systems on which we rely for our existence!  Just how weird are we beginning to notice we are???  Our strategies for staying fit; for meaningful relationships; and for living effectively in our world, are proving themselves to be wanting in ways that leave us totally confused and unable to even recognize an alternative.  We are awakening to the recognition that something is driving us – and that ‘something’ can no longer take the lead!

Many of us are beginning to awaken to the need to take the long pause and wonder:  who am I?;  and why am I here?  We are beginning to notice that just because someone else is doing it; or just because we’ve been doing it for so long; or just because we had not thought to do otherwise, it does not mean we should just continue until we have a better plan!  We are awakening to our absolute, unquestionable need to STOP!!!!  STOP doing and being all that represents the most habituated, mindless and meaningless about us!  STOP doing things even though no one else has yet told us so.  STOP gliding along, waiting for someone/something outside of ourselves to carve out a new path; or show us a different or better way!  STOP… and be still… and wonder…..

And for many of us, this is the danger zone.  It is the point at which our awakening begins to drift slowly back into a gentle doze… sliding easily into the hazy, grey area of not knowing what else to do instead… or who else to be… and simply choosing to avoid the pain and discomfort of not knowing; and choose not to choose.  The groove of the past remains open and gaping, beckoning for a quick return to a hapless and ultimately, hopeless repetition of what was.

This is the point at which, in our awakened state, we look around and can’t see anything or anyone else ‘out there’ that calls us more fully into… into…. something else that we can learn to do/be.  And so, we slowly begin to curl in our ourselves and into a stupor of  uncertainty – longing for it not to be so and yet, deaf and blind to anything other than the truth of that moment, from one moment to the next.

And repetition and platitudes become the norm.

And yet, in my world, there is another layer of awakening.  There is a layer of awakening that can take us beyond any truth within an old and familiar context; a truth that lies in a much larger, more outrageous context that has long been held as inaccessible to us all.  And that awakening is to myself, as other than what I have been told I am.

Awakening to the possibility that for hundreds of years – possibly more – what I have been told I am, is not only incomplete it is inaccurate.

Awakening to the possibility that the still and outrageous truth within my being; that truth known innately from times long ago, is indeed an absolute truth for us all.

Awakening to the possibility that my destiny does not lie in awakening to all that my human being-ness is able/capable of, but to moving beyond my human being-ness to know that which sources it all.

I know it is time for us all to awaken to the inalienable truth that we are all – each of us – a living godforce in expression in a physical body.  And as the godforce that each of us is, we are creating it all!  How can it be otherwise?  How can godforces NOT create their world?  The challenge becomes:  when I create, am I awake to the power of that truth? Or am I deeply, soundly and unshakeably asleep to it?

What is in question is not that godforces create.  What is in question is whether or not the godforce that I AM creates, mindfully?

I know I am a living godforce in expression in a physical universe – and so are you.

I know that what I hold as truth inside my being will emanate, through my choices, and become my world.

I know that my unwillingness to own that much deeper inner truth – as I capitulate to the so-called external demands/requirements/preferences/etc. of those outside of me – will ultimately be my undoing.  And in that, the messages of that inner truth will not go away.  It will simply become louder and more urgent and more persistent… until I can no longer NOT claim and live from what I know.

Awakening to the ultimate choice within that simple truth -  that I am or I am not a living godforce in a physical universe – redefines my potential.

If I am not, then I am at the mercy of the external references that fill my life; at the mercy of all of the external powers-that-be (i.e. parents, teachers, bosses, experts, rulers, etc.) that seek to define my reality for me.  As we see from all that is moving in our much larger world, this is wearing thin.  We are losing our willingness to simply abdicate from that deeper inner truth and surrender to someone/something else by which to be shaped.

We are losing regard and respect for long-standing institutions that purported to have my/our best interests at heart.  My heart knows best what my best interests require!

As unrest, dis-ease and sheer unwillingness grows around the world – around the planet and in our own back yard! – we cannot help but STOP… and wonder… how else might I choose to live my life, today?

And if I am indeed, a living godforce expressing in a physical universe; and if I begin to awaken to manifestations that become my birthright, my world begins to shift.  Not because I assault it – but because I remove the creative force of my presence from all that I do not desire.  As the breath of my being withdraws, the boundaries of that ‘other’ begin to collapse.  Energy flows where attention goes – and when I shift the force of creation that I AM from one thing to the creation of another, that which was, ceases to be.

So many platitudes!  From one day to the next, I read words intended to be inspirational or motivational… and yet, how much does any given life change?  My personal favourite?   “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience but spiritual beings having a  human experience!”  Then, how does a spiritual being LIVE in a world of flesh and blood?

Choice is indeed, the key.  But what kind of choice?  Choices within the long-held (and erroneous!) belief that we are not what we seek?  Or choices contextualized in a very different ‘truth’; a truth, for generations, fundamentally denied that we might more easily be kept in check.

Awaken to the truth of yourself as living godforce in tissue!

Awaken to the force of your presence… your breath… the vibration of your being; awaken to the power of the vibration of your own voice, not because it’s loud or insistent but because it carries the vibration of your ‘being’ into a material world.

Awaken to the brilliance your body offers as the metronome of your existence; that which keeps the rhythm and the beat of your expressed truth… assessing and measuring and reflecting the alignment of your inner truth with your external creations.

Awaken to your ability to know without content or evidence that you do; to know intuitively and instinctively what you need to say… to ask… to walk away from – and trust it!

The constraints of our own limited thinking are far more binding than any walls could ever be.  The limitations of our own thinking are more detrimental to our wellbeing than the limitations of any other.

We are at a threshold of imminent change.  It is not complicated:  change or die.  But change how?  Change what?  The change we so desperately both require and demand – of ourselves and of each other – is the change from form to energy; from matter to spirit; and from human being to godforce.  These are not incremental.  These will not come in baby steps, one safe move after the other.  These are leaps of our own potential!  They are big and bold; they are out loud and without secret; and they are the paradigm shift that we have now, for so long, so desparatly sought.

Awakening to the truth of WHAT we are will transform our lives.  Anything less, and we stay caught in the recycled web of the time before. It is a choice.

Exactly one week later, my teenage step-daughter was taken to the hospital in a coma, where she remained so for 12 days.  An extensive stay in intensive care led to what now, may likely be a long and slow recovery.

And through it all, life as I knew it, disappeared.

Here I am – almost three months later – and I am noticing that I am filled with gratitude and appreciation for the creativity of so many, in my life; and the Creative Force is streaming through me in ways that I can barely track, let alone capture and define!  Flashes of possibility stream through my awareness – and I know that every single one is a possible world/reality that beckons.  I know that the coming months will be filled with new insights, discoveries and creations – all of which I will share with you.

How could that be?  How could it be that something so drastic and definitive as the full-time and essential requirement to redirect my attention to another could, ultimately, lead to such a surge of Life within myself?

How could it be that removing myself from life, as I knew it, could guide me to something that, in this moment, fills every cell of my being with the intense and inexplicable ‘knowing’ that a new direction is about to reveal itself to me; and from the very different and keenly attuned ‘start point’ that I have now BECOME, life will expand and accelerate, yet again!

In this moment, I am so mindful of all of the science that has filled my life: works of physics and medicine; all the names that you and I may both know so well, like, Bruce Lipton, Deepak Chopra, Candace Pert, Michio Kaku, Pribram, Chilton-Pearce to name but a tiny few!  Decades of reading, watching, attending, listening, exploring, testing, attempting!    I am so grateful for all of the amazing discoveries of these gifted and compelling seekers and finders.

I am also intensely mindful of the somewhat less lauded journeys of those who brought to me the potential of magic, for myself, in my life.  The weird and wonderful works of the likes of Ramtha and Seth; channelled works of Bartholomew, Cayce and others.  Perhaps the one who stands out most in my personal experience is Lynn V. Andrews – the prolific and compelling author of Medicine Woman, The Power Deck and all that followed.  From those of science, I learned about my world.  From Lynn, I discovered how to trust… and allow myself to BE the compelling and powerful woman that I AM.  To this day, she continues to show the way for so many women who are committed to reclaiming and redefining themselves.

From the scientists, I came to know.  From Lynn Andrews, I came to BE.   I know that both have been necessary.

Now, I stand at a gateway of some kind.  I know that all I have already known; and all I have already come to ‘be’, are no longer ‘enough’.  It is not that I am less, it is that in having become more, I am at a new launching point into my own discovery.

The body of knowledge of WEL-Systems® is comprehensive, proven and easily engaged by others.  There is a vast and easily accessible range of books, CD’s, audio files, articles, blogs etc… that invites and guides those who are drawn to discover.

The ever-expanding community of enlivened, awakened and powerful women who are at the very core of this wave of human evolution are, without exception, women of RIG… of Respect, Integrity and Generosity of Spirit, for Self and other.  Their willingness and ability to move beyond seeking and into the moment of being willing to be found by their own greater inner truth and intention, is without question.  Their courage is matched by their humour, compassion and depth of caring.  I am grateful for every one!

For me, this place has become the launching point for the next.  What will that be?  I have not a clue… and yet, I am ready, willing and eager to entertain its potential.  I know there is nothing for me to do but breathe… let go.. invite.. and allow myself to be taken where it will go.

Internal referencing is the key.  This one, single, solitary knowable ‘truth’ (as truth goes!)  transforms lives.  The dotted line of the Quantum Biological Human™: once you know it’s there, there is no going back!  It will also transform our world.

It’s good to be awake and alive!

Breathing is good….

I am so mindful of the deep, urgent and massive desire that exists for an acceleration in the evolution of consciousness of the masses.  The outcomes we are co-creating as a global collective are moving rapidly down a track that will kill us all.  Gaia will be fine… always has been and always will be.  And perhaps I am at the point where that small voice inside me says: change or die.

The kind of change I”m talking about isn’t at the level of my behaviours or strategies for moving through my world.  They are at the level that one might imagine when consciousness is reconsidering itself and its own creations and tiring of the perpetual collapse of one of its designs.  Perhaps we are tiring of the game of being who we have always been…. determing that if there is nothing else, the game may well be done.

I am mindful, on this day, of the Great Adventure of the Evolution of Consciousness and how it wanders through the terrain of the spiritual…or, as I like to refer to it, the White Light and Forgiveness Trail, taken by so many and leading only to one more dead-end in the road.  It is devoid of the process of acquired information coalescing over time into the creation of that which is greater than the sum of its parts.

And then there is the Use Your Head and Forget the Rest Trail…. taken by so many and leading to a different dead-end, that of losing our sense of play and delight in ourselves and our willingness to go out yet one more day and play again!  Along this trail, there is no room for play….nor is there room to know and yet know that in that knowing, there is so much more to be discovered!  It is not an answer that brings closure, it is another step that makes the next one accessible.

Perhaps the least travelled yet most potent of all, is the I AM the Godforce That I Seek Trail… the one that makes it clear that no other is going to rescue us, fix us or fix our world.  Together, we made this mess.  And only together, can we clean it up!

No Big Eye in the Sky is going to look down on us or, better yet, swoop down from on high and lift us out of the misery of our own creation!  And yet, we wait.  We continue to pray – and allow our generations’ old habits continue to run our lives under the label of ‘reality’.  We continue to look to the heavens – and make the same poor-now-becoming-deadly choices that we made last week, last month, last year… last lifetime!  We continue to lament the misery of our world, seeking to find someone – anyone! – to pin it on that we might comfort ourselves in our own resolve to do nothing different… or differently.

I am no scientist.  I have not spent a lifetime studying climate, carbon emissions and the dangerous (to the planet and all of us!) outcomes of this ancient dance.  And I am also no fool.

I can read.  The internet has given me access to articles, submissions, reports, etc.  that do not require a genius IQ to comprehend.

I can see.  I look out my window and I know intimately the changes in my own small corner of the world.  I follow the changes happening in places I love; and I recognize that we’re not in Kansas anymore, Toto!  I will never forget the moment when, after more than 5 trips to Alaska, I found myself weeping at the impossible-not-to-see changes that were rapidly making their way through this stunning beauty.

I trust my instincts.  I know – in that deep and intuitive way – that we are already  well down a path of the destruction of life as we have known it.  I know that death will come in numbers and in waves for which we have no precedent in our ability to comprehend and engage.  And I also know that in that, I am not alone.

And through all of this, the greatest paradox is:  it is as simple as a choice.

During a recent shared meal with my 22-year-old son, I heard him say:  ”You know, Mom, when you were 22, you could look ahead 20 years and know that you’re world would be pretty much the same as it was at that time.  I can’t say that.  I can’t look ahead 5 years and have any sense at all what it will be like.  Between wars and conflicts, melting ice, rising sea levels, bigger storms, drought… and all the things that I don’t even know about, yet!… I know my planet is no longer predictable.”

My son is right.  And how sad it is for me to have to say that.

I choose to make my voice heard!  I hope you’ll choose a way for you to do that, for yourself.

Breathing is good….

Funny, don’t you think?  My very own words come back to me – years later and from the other side of the planet! – that I might find my way back to myself.  In the same breath, I am re-inspired to stay true to my own intentions; and I glide easily, with a silent chuckle, into the recognition of ‘Ah yes… there it is!  The holodeck of my experience manifesting all that I require!’

I love it when I surprise myself!

In the event that these words may be as timely for you as they have been for me, here is what was referenced:

“For all of our intensity for and commitment to the search; for all of our willingness and determination; for all of our research and exploration of the evolution of consciousness and advancement of the species, my suspicion is that our report card would not be very appealing nor compelling as evidence of our capacity to ‘get it’ in a way that allows us to engage differently. We continue to live in a world that appears mindlessly committed to its own demise. Like punching a pillow, just when we think we might have made a difference in one place, we find ourselves bearing witness to another gaping protrusion that has formed itself elsewhere. And on and on it goes, a constant stream of the same problem played out by an endless variety of players, all with the same script. Our willingness, like our hearts, may be in the right place but our ability is lagging pitifully behind.

Like myriad pieces of string rolled into a giant ball, our problems and challenges continue to accumulate and increase in their variety and size, becoming impossible for us not to see. As much as we can discern the color and texture of the threads closest to the surface – planetary upheaval as Gaia manifests her outrage, expressing through increasing density and intensity of earthquakes, hurricanes, tsunamis, mud slides, forest fires; violence toward self and other; decay and collapse at the highest levels of our often decorated and publicly rewarded so-called leadership; political and economic erosion beyond repair; etc. – we continue to be unable to name and claim the ones much closer to the core that allow the ball to maintain its formation. We go about our lives, every cell in our body bathed in and formed by the numbing effects of generations of mindless, habituated thinking, asleep to that which crumbles around us, hoping that someone else will take care of it all. . What will it take to awaken the giants that we are from the intergenerational slumber that has now become a coma? What will it take for us to call up the courage to find out?”

If you’re drawn to read the entire article, you’ll find it at Evolution by Intention: New Beginnings for Weary Souls .

My thanks to Murray Thompson who, quite likely, had not a clue that he was helping me to help myself.  And as I delight in that thought, I wonder what will come next…

Breathing is good!